So, about this 2009 business...

Happy New Year and all that jazz. I think my only real resolution this year is to make myself happy and so far, that's been an interesting concept.

The real thing I'm thinking about is what happens in July. In July, my "contract" is up and I'll be done with Americorps. And so it'll be on to something new. Something new just might be grad school. I've been saying it's plan B, but the more I think about it the more I wonder if I should just make it plan A and have done with it. There's a couple of reasons why that might be good:

1. The economy sucks and going to school would let everything calm down by the time I was ready to go job hunting for reals. I've done the job hunting in a recession/bad economy before. It has never worked out well for me; I keep winding back up in retail and I don't want that.

2. I have this feeling if I don't do it now, it won't happen. Which may be silly and may not be.

3. It feels right. More right than my tentative job searching has felt.

Of course, there's reasons why it might be bad:

1. Am I just wanting to do it so I don't have to go job hunting full force?

2. There's the question of the money, although even working part time would probably make me more money that I make now.

3. It would probably be adding more to my student loans (although, really, at this point, that really doesn't matter. I'll be paying them off until I'm 50 anyhow).

I don't know. I really don't. But I think I might regret not trying to go for it, to do it. But do I want it for the right reasons, is what I want to know. Or does it really matter what the right reasons are?